Quick Post 5: 'Warm Bodies'

Bismillah,

Well, obviously I have stopped writing ever since. Don't even ask why, because that way it is.

There the title is. I'm not talking about zombies and shit, but some reflection of events occurring in my life, recently, lately.

Last month, I was hit by a car, or so (I was the one hitting the car, actually). Some minors injuries, scratches here and there. And, here it happened again today, while this time, I really was hitting the car. LOL. I'm not sure what kind of voodoo or spells was recited on me. This time I bleed big time. My arm, I could even see the flesh. But, adrenaline come in handy though, I dont feel it hurts much. Even, my butt hurts.

Despite, I was considered so very lucky, not to be fatal or something. Well, I guessed He still wants me to wander on His earths for blessings. Well, God, you got this, this time I'll work for it big time. I won't waste this moments you still spared me.

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Do you know, or ever experience, the last seconds of your life, when your life almost being taken away? Some says, it's the sparks, some says, it's the lights, well, as for me, its the nothingness in between life and death. The feelings is somewhat empty, it's like your soul at that moment was freezed, not being able to hear anything but a 'screetch' sound, your eyes are not seeing anything. You can't feel, no remorse, no nothing. It's like you're flying away from the bike into the thin air, and just slammed on to the ground. No fear, at all, but heart beat. Exactly, what I feel, today, when I hit the back of the car, real hard; though I'm not sure how hard, I just thought it so hard, I flew to the side of the car. Paused. Stunted, flabbergasted, startled, all mixed.You can't decide what to feel. To feel sorry for yourself, or to just get up and... I inspect my arms, its bleeding, well white flesh on my arms are visible at least. No, no pain, just blood.

'To bleed, is not what I'm afraid of, but to bleed, and not counting my blessings is'

Bleeding, it makes me feel alive.

Tell me, what makes you feel alive?

Memo 2: ASEAN Countries Backpacking Trip.

Bismillah.

I'll be departing from KLIA to Suvarnabhumi Bangkok this Sunday (7 April 2013) for so-called ASEAN Countries backpacking trip or so I call it. Be going to Thailand and overland to Phnom Penh, Cambodia and Ho Chi Minh City and air travel to Singapore. It's a week journey.:)
Alhamdullilah for letting me see other places. :)

Salam.

If you get a chance, travel. You'll see the part of the world that you've never seen. Even better, you'll learn to be grateful.

Eigth Post: Ini Sistem Kita, Tapi Kita Tetap Terperangkap

Bismillah,

Hari ini aku baru sahaja lepas mengharungi hari paling teruk dalam kehidupan aku. Teruk yang bagaimana? Susah aku nak gambarkan. Aku menuntut ilmu di sebuah universiti kejuruteraan yang mempunyai kedudukan baik di negara ini, tapi mentaliti penuntutnya, susah nak digambarkan. 

Teringat ayat Co-Founder TFTN pada saya dalam Twitter, tentang menyuruh saya lakuakn perubahan. 'Stay out of your comfort zone' Indeed!

Mereka pom-pang-pom-pang tidak puas hati pada sesuatu tapi bila diberi peluang untuk mengekspreskan rasa itu, merek berdiam diri. Mana hilangnya minda kelas pertama kita? Mana hilangnya tahap keyakinan tiada batas seorang pemikir oleh mahasiswa sperti kita? Mana hilangnya IQ tinggi  yang menjadikan kamu pelajar Anugerah Dekan Kelas Pertama jika perkara semudah ini kita tak mampu nak lakukan.

Kita bukan dipaksa untuk terus berada dijalan ini walau pun kita tak suka, bahkan kita siap dibentang peluang untuk suarakan pendapat kita sebagai seorang pemikir, namun akhirnya kecewa kerana soul ahli fikir ini semua hilang. Alasannya, tidak mahu campur tangan hal-hal seperti ini, alasannya lagi, selagi dia tak kacau kita, kita malas nak campur. Alasannya lagi, takpelah ikut jelah apa dia cakap.

Sampai bila? Bukan suruh anda memberontak, cukup untuk anda berikan pandangan. Anda mengaku mahasiswa bijak berintegriti dengan keputusan cemerlang, tetapi anda takut mahu tegakkan hak anda? Tetapi anda malu nak betulkan apa yang salah? Sistem pendidikan apa yang kita lalui selama ini sehingga minda kita terbelenggu se kronik ini? 

Patutlah ahli pemikir kita yang sedang berkhidmat pun sama saja dibelenggu sperti kita, sebab kita pun sudah dilatih dari awal lagi untuk membelenggu diri sendiri. 'Kau buat je apa aku cakap, selagi kau jaga aku, aku takkan kacau kau'  Inilah mentaliti ahli fikir sekarang. Aku tak kacau kau, kau jagan kacau aku. Aku tak nak masuk campur sebab bukan urusan aku (walaupun memang urusan kau cuma kau tak sedar).

Kita sekarang ini aku ibaratkan macam seorang banduan dalam bilik yang sangat gelap. Walaupun kita berpakaian cantik dan menarik untuk ditunjukkan pada orang ramai, namun dek kerana kegelapan itu, kecantikan itu tidak kelihatan, tidak zahir di mata. Kita dengar bunyi tikus berkeliaran di sekitar bilik penjara, namun kita tak mampu nak buat apa-apa kerana keadaan terlalu gelap walau kita tahu kewujudunnya tikus itu. Alasannya mudah, kerana kita masih terpenjara. Dan yang lebih sedih kita terpenjara dalam bilik yang kita anggap tempat beradu namun bertukar menjadi penjara yang gelap gelita sehinggakan keindahan persalinan yang di pakaikan pada tubuh pun tidak kelihatan. RUGINYA. BAJU CANTIK TAPI ORANG TAK NAMPAK. TAHU ADA TIKUS DALAM BILIK PENJARA TAPI TAK MAMPU NAK HALAU.

SEBAB. SEBAB KITA DALAM GELAP PENJARA.

Andai inilah yang kita peroleh selama 10 tahun lebih menuntut ilmu, mungkin kita patut ada rasa malu pada diri sendiri. Bukan mungkin tapi mesti. 

Seharusnya pendidikan menjadikan manusia itu manusia bukannya robot yang menurut kata. Apa saja di pinta kita menurut membabi buta tak perlu ada soal dan tanya. Justeru di mana nilai pendidikan dan menuntut ilmu jika yang di damba hanya bayaran bulanan kerja? Di mana nilai pendidkan jika yang di zahir hanya menghamba semata? Di mana nilai pendidikan jika fungsi minda di helaian putih cuma? Mungkin itu definisi pendidikan untuk kita? atau mungkin hanya pendidikan yang seperti ini yang layak untuk insan sperti kita? Pendidikan kerana harta bukan kerana nilai nya yang sebenar. Bijak betul kita ini. Jangan pendidikan itu cukup bila terima segulung ijazah sahaja.

Ini lah masalah kita. Silence and LISTEN. LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!

Salam, anda tahu yang terbaik untuk anda, tapi ada yang mahukannya dan ada yang tidak ambil peduli. Terpulang.

p/s Additional reading here. (similar blogpost)

Sedap quote ni,
Source http://msocsite.blogspot.com/2013/01/comfort-zone.html

Seventh Post: Dahulu Ini Sebuah Janji, Tapi Telah Dicapati.

Bismillah,


Kata mereka: "Nak buat proposal berbulan-bulan." -Ok sekarang dah berbulan-bulan dah rasanya (>3bulan).

Kata mereka: "Nak buat survey harga di universiti lain dahulu: -Ok, rasanya dah ada pihak yang provide maklumat tu.

" kolam renang larkin RM4.., klam renang seremban RM2.. Kolam Renang UIA Free; siap ada 2 kolam renang, satu untuk lelaki satu untuk perempuan.. Kolam renang UTM RM5, terpaksa ikut jadual pulak tu, and bukak lambat (pukul 9) =_="

          -petikan di facebook-

Kata mereka: "Beri kami masa" -Ok, nk berapa banyak lagi masa? Setahun, dua tahun?
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Ini bukan tentang isu kolam renang harga murah atau mahal. Ini tentang janji-janji yang ditaburkan. Ini tentang anda yang berjanji pada kami. Ini tentang perkara yang membuatkan kami undi anda kerana anda memberi kami harapan. 

Mungkin ini soal remeh dibandingkan denga isu politik nasional yang lebih hangat. Malah pasti ada pihak yang akan mengomel "Eleh, ini pun nak besarka, bukannya big problem pun. Dalam universiti je pun."

Ya betul, memang bukan isu besar, tapi besar atau tidak isu itu, tanggung jawab dan amanah yang dipikul sama besar sahaja dengan orang-orang yang terlibat dalam perkara yang lebih besar seperti isu poilitik nasional.

Mereka tidak salah sepenuhnya. Ada perkara yang mereka lakukan dengan baik dan tahniah untuk itu. Cuma, sedikit kelompongan seperti ini boleh menyebabkan pelbagai isu berbangkait, khusus insan-insan yang cuba menjatuhkan anda. Sebab, semasa awal kempen dulu, manifesto ini semua anda jadikan seolah-olah objektif perjuangan anda yang utama, namun setelah di pilih mejadi wakil kami berdasarkan manifesto itu, terus, sunyi sepi perlaksanaan manifesto. Mana turun harga kolam renang? Mana janji tandas bersih? Mana janji coach shuttle khas untuk wanita? Mana janji peningkatan perkhidmatan bas? Kalau bukan pada kertas flyers yang melambak bersepah di lantai usai pilihan raya yang akhirnya dikutip oleh makcik-makcik cleaner.

Salam, one who says, once didn't care, even until now.

Travelog 1: Backpacking in Sabah

Bismillah,

I'm not gonna write much in this post, all I'm giving is pictures and a lot of them.

Memo 1

I'm going backpack to Sabah next week. Wee~ -_-"
Kinda nervous and excited.

Sixth Post: Courageous. What is True and What is Not.

Bismillah,

Source http://www.123rf.com/

This week, my TL in either Twitter or Facebook was and is flooded with 'Listen, Listen, Listen' and 'Animals have problems too!' and 'Sharks have problems' and most importantly our 'hero' Miss Bavani with her long statistics and figures.

I actually do not have any problem with this issue. But when I watched the video and saw how she's being humiliated in front of her peers, I think that is somehow an action of violating one's dignity. She ain't deserved to be treated like that. Plus, Miss Jobeen does not really need to grab her mic and confront her face to face. According to what a sane human would think, Miss Jobeen was as much intimidated as she tried to re-intimidate Miss Bavani in her reply speech. If she was by any chance not intimidated by all the facts and statistics presented by Miss Bavani, she won't come down stage and repeating same exclamation word over again (10 times or more). By doing just that, she has dragged her professionals level to a much lower level than Miss Bavani's after she was humiliated.

What surprised me more, was the applause from the crowd every time Miss Jobeen attacked Miss Bavani.  There's nothing wrong in supporting her(Jobeen's) points but there's a limit to that. And we know the line that should not be crossed was when Miss Bavani was alone standing confronting her dignity with an older woman who supported by Bavani's peers and, I can't imagine how she'd feel at that very moment. And if this  is the integrity that those students learnt in the university through out their 4 years, I'd very much to say, our education systems has failed us. It's a harsh truth but it is. What's the purpose of learning if we can't develop our common sense? Yeah, the lecturers ain't teaching us common senses in the syllabus but we are and should develop it during the process of learning itself. Not just by reading every single words in the text books and doing all the tutorials and all we get from that was nothing. That would make us a robot.

However, in a way, Miss Bavani, too have her own flaw, when she used a very harsh intonations towards someone older. If she was to be blamed, it's maybe because she was too emotional and with a sole intentions to make us realize that we as educated group of people actually deserve something more.

Lastly, the moment Miss Jobeen said that among all students in the hall, Miss Bavani's has the less education, I'd still believe that if she is indeed academically retarded (if that's the case but I don't think so because this type of people usually are on average at least not lowest) , she is somehow much much much more educated generically and her mind and brain and common senses are working properly compared to those clapping hand (except for one Chinese guy who has his voice in the background but later muted). Bavani actually did not by any chance deserves a place in any institutions in Malaysia because it's cheap and not capable of developing her well-developed mind. If I have the capacity, I would certainly having her to work with me and send her to any top notch university in the world like Harvard, Cambridge or else, because with the qualities she has shown she'd not just make a good student with book but a good leader, a good person and an outstanding human.

Sourcehttp://www.thehamiltonian.net

Salam, you might be good in one thing but remember there's others who are good in many things that you are not.

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