Dreams and Perks of Life

Well, surprisingly enough I don’t have big dreams. I don’t dream to be rich and what not. I don’t dream to be working in huge, gigantic, well-known corporation like most of people would do if they have the chance to. But I do have a dream to get just enough; not because I’m easily satisfied, but because I think life is larger than what it means materially. 

While most of my colleagues want to have big jobs, big pay checks at big corporation; well who am I kidding to say that I don’t want it all huh? But, as far as I’m concern, that’s definitely not my destination. I want to work somewhere I can be proud of but not for too long though. Because, at some point in your life you just want to be free and being able to do anything you have ever wanted is more refreshing than the thought of having to do things you don’t really enjoy (unless it is something you enjoy, then stop).

If someone were to ask me, whether or not I would gain enough money if I don’t become allegedly big-pay-corporate-guy (which I get a lot, whenever we started to talk about my dream), I would say this; 

“You’re going to be broke, you’re going to hurt, and you’re going to die anyway. And yes, it’s ignorant to not say that you are as well going to be happy and enjoying life as much as people with huge pay checks (or infact you are going to enjoy more than they are). But, all that is part of life. Just because you’re well-off and socially-well-done, doesn’t mean social-less-conformer is not going to do well too, because doing well in life is a perspective. It’s about how you see life, and most importantly; how enjoy it. And of course, everyone has a totally different way of celebrating life, you know why? Because it’s their life, and it’s not a one way street.

Arguing that life should be enjoyed as if it’s a one way street, is kind of ignorant and maybe it’s the idea of people who trying to dissemble their weakness in the celebration. And saying that only wealth can make you happy just because you would have anything in the world with that notes with written digits is total fallacy. Despite all above, you might see me struggling to survive the capitalist world, because that’s what the world want you to know and to suffer from it. We’ve gone through half of the sufferings, why stops now? Go on and do what you like.

How Do You See Yourself In 5 Years?

Been awhile since the last time I've written on this wall.

If I were to be asked (personally) how I see myself in 5 years, I would have a long unfinished list to be presented to them. Well, it does consist of few versions and chapters. But the one I usually clung on would be this one, the one that I'm going to write down there.

"How do you see yourself in 5 years?"

Urmm, well, 5 years is a relatively short period of time. I'm 22 now and in 5 years I'm going to be 27. While most of my friend or non-friends or whoever around my age would think of having a family and kids, well, let's just say that I'm not ready for it yet. I'm kind of a commitment freak, I'd say.

I mean, I'm just not ready to be stuck there in a house with someone who do not even know me, and stay like that forever. Biggest issue is, I wanna fly free, i wanna go here and there, see people, help kids in the rural areas of Nepal and India and Bhutan and Middle East; which their village's name you can't even spell. Unless, she is willing to live stray, move here and there, then it's a deal. But I don't think there's girl like that.

Plus, in 5 years I only see me making my parents happy, helping them out in their golden years. I might not be the funniest or useful child in the family, but at least, while they're there, I just want to give them all I've got.

While most of people around my age are seeing themselves as promising leaders in a big company or so, I hope to be one as well, but I guess life is bigger than achieving what is noble and holy in the eyes' of society, well typical. So instead of just working for money I wish I could just wander around the world, seeing things and people, go to as much corner the world has to offer as possible. Just challenging my self doing things most people won't do. I mean, if most people don't think there's anything wrong to just conform with the need of the society, then there has to be nothing wrong for someone to not conform to the society as well.

While, this might just ends up in a dream, I still have a slight hope that this gonna be real. I've been thinking about this in sleep, when I'm zoning out in class, in toilet when I poop. It's kinda big deal for this to be real tho.

Well, how you see yourself in 5 years then?

Life Unfortunately

Unfortunately, in life; the destination does not matter. In the end, thing that counts is the journey; after all, because life is all about the journey; from the start. 

It's about the path you have crossed, the puddle of water you have stepped on, the grass field you have rolled over, the barb that your hands and feet have been torn-ed in, the rain that you have drenched on, the stones that you have thrown and being thrown at, the stairs and floors that you have fallen over.
It's about the hills that you have climbed, the beaches and rivers and swamps that you have swum in, the trees that you have clung on, the clouds and skies that you have stared at, the stars you have gazed.

It's about the people you have met and the memories you have made with them, the cats and dogs you have been played with and chased by, the chipping of birds and cuckoo-ing of cock that have wake you up in the morning, the sound of crickets that filled your night, the honking that you've got in the traffic, the sound of fox that you do not know even until now.

It's about what has happened in your life, in you and what are bound to happen again. It's not about what should happened, because the-should-happened things are your option, and life is a journey created by the traveler; you.

The Kind of Life; You got One Life.

Hi,

"You have vast of chances ahead. Color up your life and do the out-of-ordinary because the ordinary is dull."

This is to all young people out there. Those who have pennies to be spent, time to be wasted, and loads of energy to be doing something great!

You guys are so lucky not to be bonded by any organizations upon graduation. Yet, free to choose where to go from there. Being paid an adequate amount of stipend by the unattached, strictly loose requirement to be maintained -organization. This is a chance, Opportunity. The kind of thing you don't get much in life. Me, I don't have this. But, it's not a bad thing, though. Albeit all the grades requirement and stuffs; I still get to do things I love even sometimes I don't think I get to do much of them.

But, you people are having this thing, the kind of thing most of fellas out there could only dream, or wish for. And it is such a waste if all you do with that perks were, spending them on items that could not be a memory; or a story to be told. 

Use that stipend, not wisely but use to the fullest; not on materials that can not be turn into a story, but on a journey or something that can be written into a novel, after all experiences are the best teacher. 

Stop being typical. Do what you think matter and counts. Go to the raid, go to concert and party. Go to the beaches and hike in forests. Travel alone in a totally anonymous place. Get acquainted to as many people possible. Go online and look for fellow traveler.

If you are not into travelling outside, go online and look for sites that offer volunteering and go fucking volunteer. Help the people. Meet the less fortunate. Go to conferences that discusses the society. Go to a book store and grab pieces that gives you something to think.

It's amazing we are in Engineering School, or Medical School or something and all we know (not well known-of though) is the topics related to our major. Grab some coffee and tea and call someone (or chat online) and set a coffee talk in Starbucks and discuss about different topics that matters to the world. Stop spending your time remembering Engineering stuffs, talk to some one in Economics, talk to someone in Law or Arts. Get some fucking knowledge from them.

Go out to the other faculty and take a minor in Macro Economics, Philosophy or Writings. Make your youth days count. Go out with friends on a sushi date and movies. Put the books aside, sometime, because you are going to need time off, once in a while.

Most importantly, make your University life a memorable one. It's kinda hard for some one like me to do so; with the bonding and stuffs, requirement I need to fulfill (because I'm academically retarded), but you have the chances and if you waste it now, you are going to waste it forever.

It's not about the physical possession you might enjoy or any official accreditation you might get. Its about doing things that you, yourself could be proud of, even though no one will.

Finally, just go out there and throw all the money and time and energy you for something that matter most, not for anyone, but for you; so if fate says you are going to be a writer, you have something to write about. If says, you are going to be a grand parent, you have a story to tell your grand kids. Some people need to be reminded of appreciating all the finer (might be smallest) things in life.

Till then,

Someone who care.

Thought 4

"You can be of the high power. But you can't be divine; after all, you are merely a human, just like me. And I, we; human make mistakes."

TFTN Education Congress at TM Convention Centre

HI,

Just to share of the quotes I get from the speakers during the Congress.

It has been fun in the Congress, meeting with fellow change-makers, make new friends (even got a ride back to KL Sentral; thanks man!), and most importantly eyes-to-eyes with someone I look-up to; Mr Anas Alam Faizli, not to mention Nurul Izzah (she left earlier), and that funny lad, Mr Matluthfi (this guy is funny in-and-out), and if you love reading articles; you'l be excited about Mr Fathi Aris.

"Education approach through LOVE" -Anas ALam Faizli-

"We are more testing than educating" -Dato' Dr Siddiq Fadzil-

"Kenapa sekolah tidak menyenangkan? - kerana sekolah gagal memberi kasih sayang" -Dato' Dr Siddiq Fadzil-

"Orang miskin tidak bodoh, mereka miskin kerana dimiskinkan dan bodoh kerana dibodohkan oleh sistem" -Dato' Dr Siddiq Fadzil-

"Men are born ignorance-not stupid, they are made stupid by education" -Dato' Dr Siddiq Fadzil-

"Young man, be brave to ventures; ....those succeeding guys they aren't loyal to anyone but performance" -Dr Ghauth Jasmon-

"Being futuristic without the sounds of knowledge is akin of building a sand hole- sadly, you are the generation that is sinking in that hole" -Nurul Izzah-

"Purpose of education; afterall, is to engage with humane's maximum potential" -Nurul Izzah-

"Harapan saya; supaya mahasiswa tidak terikat oleh HEP dan bebas untuk bergerak" -Nurul Izzah-

Thought 3

I used to dwell in a corner thinking that grades I acquire in exams matter most in life.
It's pretty much defines who I am, where I'll work, pay I'll get.
Well, 6 years has gone, I learned something that everyone should; I learned that life is bigger than that.

All these while, I have been thinking about how many A's I'm getting at the end of the term, it kills
part of me inside.
Well, after all; when I started doing things I like; going places, hikes,entering stupid competition to win free stuffs, I feel like I'm living again.

I guess, grades do not actually defines me (by any means but my memorizing and manipulating abilities),
however, doing things that makes me feels me; does.
I mean, these are all subjective matter.

Some of us might find getting bundles of A's favorable that it makes our life a better life-to-live; the question is, does all those things are the kind of memories we would like to keep forever?
If they aren't, then we got to find something that will.

Anyway, YOLO right?

Thought 2

"If love is setting a place at the table for someone who never coming home; I think I'll pass"

Thought 1

"I'm vulnerable."

"Awww, people are fragile. I mean, God purposely made us that way.
To be mad, be sad, be happy, have feelings and live with it."

"Hurmmmm..."

"Yeah, or life would be dull."

Quick Post 5: 'Warm Bodies'

Bismillah,

Well, obviously I have stopped writing ever since. Don't even ask why, because that way it is.

There the title is. I'm not talking about zombies and shit, but some reflection of events occurring in my life, recently, lately.

Last month, I was hit by a car, or so (I was the one hitting the car, actually). Some minors injuries, scratches here and there. And, here it happened again today, while this time, I really was hitting the car. LOL. I'm not sure what kind of voodoo or spells was recited on me. This time I bleed big time. My arm, I could even see the flesh. But, adrenaline come in handy though, I dont feel it hurts much. Even, my butt hurts.

Despite, I was considered so very lucky, not to be fatal or something. Well, I guessed He still wants me to wander on His earths for blessings. Well, God, you got this, this time I'll work for it big time. I won't waste this moments you still spared me.

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Do you know, or ever experience, the last seconds of your life, when your life almost being taken away? Some says, it's the sparks, some says, it's the lights, well, as for me, its the nothingness in between life and death. The feelings is somewhat empty, it's like your soul at that moment was freezed, not being able to hear anything but a 'screetch' sound, your eyes are not seeing anything. You can't feel, no remorse, no nothing. It's like you're flying away from the bike into the thin air, and just slammed on to the ground. No fear, at all, but heart beat. Exactly, what I feel, today, when I hit the back of the car, real hard; though I'm not sure how hard, I just thought it so hard, I flew to the side of the car. Paused. Stunted, flabbergasted, startled, all mixed.You can't decide what to feel. To feel sorry for yourself, or to just get up and... I inspect my arms, its bleeding, well white flesh on my arms are visible at least. No, no pain, just blood.

'To bleed, is not what I'm afraid of, but to bleed, and not counting my blessings is'

Bleeding, it makes me feel alive.

Tell me, what makes you feel alive?

Memo 2: ASEAN Countries Backpacking Trip.

Bismillah.

I'll be departing from KLIA to Suvarnabhumi Bangkok this Sunday (7 April 2013) for so-called ASEAN Countries backpacking trip or so I call it. Be going to Thailand and overland to Phnom Penh, Cambodia and Ho Chi Minh City and air travel to Singapore. It's a week journey.:)
Alhamdullilah for letting me see other places. :)

Salam.

If you get a chance, travel. You'll see the part of the world that you've never seen. Even better, you'll learn to be grateful.

Eigth Post: Ini Sistem Kita, Tapi Kita Tetap Terperangkap

Bismillah,

Hari ini aku baru sahaja lepas mengharungi hari paling teruk dalam kehidupan aku. Teruk yang bagaimana? Susah aku nak gambarkan. Aku menuntut ilmu di sebuah universiti kejuruteraan yang mempunyai kedudukan baik di negara ini, tapi mentaliti penuntutnya, susah nak digambarkan. 

Teringat ayat Co-Founder TFTN pada saya dalam Twitter, tentang menyuruh saya lakuakn perubahan. 'Stay out of your comfort zone' Indeed!

Mereka pom-pang-pom-pang tidak puas hati pada sesuatu tapi bila diberi peluang untuk mengekspreskan rasa itu, merek berdiam diri. Mana hilangnya minda kelas pertama kita? Mana hilangnya tahap keyakinan tiada batas seorang pemikir oleh mahasiswa sperti kita? Mana hilangnya IQ tinggi  yang menjadikan kamu pelajar Anugerah Dekan Kelas Pertama jika perkara semudah ini kita tak mampu nak lakukan.

Kita bukan dipaksa untuk terus berada dijalan ini walau pun kita tak suka, bahkan kita siap dibentang peluang untuk suarakan pendapat kita sebagai seorang pemikir, namun akhirnya kecewa kerana soul ahli fikir ini semua hilang. Alasannya, tidak mahu campur tangan hal-hal seperti ini, alasannya lagi, selagi dia tak kacau kita, kita malas nak campur. Alasannya lagi, takpelah ikut jelah apa dia cakap.

Sampai bila? Bukan suruh anda memberontak, cukup untuk anda berikan pandangan. Anda mengaku mahasiswa bijak berintegriti dengan keputusan cemerlang, tetapi anda takut mahu tegakkan hak anda? Tetapi anda malu nak betulkan apa yang salah? Sistem pendidikan apa yang kita lalui selama ini sehingga minda kita terbelenggu se kronik ini? 

Patutlah ahli pemikir kita yang sedang berkhidmat pun sama saja dibelenggu sperti kita, sebab kita pun sudah dilatih dari awal lagi untuk membelenggu diri sendiri. 'Kau buat je apa aku cakap, selagi kau jaga aku, aku takkan kacau kau'  Inilah mentaliti ahli fikir sekarang. Aku tak kacau kau, kau jagan kacau aku. Aku tak nak masuk campur sebab bukan urusan aku (walaupun memang urusan kau cuma kau tak sedar).

Kita sekarang ini aku ibaratkan macam seorang banduan dalam bilik yang sangat gelap. Walaupun kita berpakaian cantik dan menarik untuk ditunjukkan pada orang ramai, namun dek kerana kegelapan itu, kecantikan itu tidak kelihatan, tidak zahir di mata. Kita dengar bunyi tikus berkeliaran di sekitar bilik penjara, namun kita tak mampu nak buat apa-apa kerana keadaan terlalu gelap walau kita tahu kewujudunnya tikus itu. Alasannya mudah, kerana kita masih terpenjara. Dan yang lebih sedih kita terpenjara dalam bilik yang kita anggap tempat beradu namun bertukar menjadi penjara yang gelap gelita sehinggakan keindahan persalinan yang di pakaikan pada tubuh pun tidak kelihatan. RUGINYA. BAJU CANTIK TAPI ORANG TAK NAMPAK. TAHU ADA TIKUS DALAM BILIK PENJARA TAPI TAK MAMPU NAK HALAU.

SEBAB. SEBAB KITA DALAM GELAP PENJARA.

Andai inilah yang kita peroleh selama 10 tahun lebih menuntut ilmu, mungkin kita patut ada rasa malu pada diri sendiri. Bukan mungkin tapi mesti. 

Seharusnya pendidikan menjadikan manusia itu manusia bukannya robot yang menurut kata. Apa saja di pinta kita menurut membabi buta tak perlu ada soal dan tanya. Justeru di mana nilai pendidikan dan menuntut ilmu jika yang di damba hanya bayaran bulanan kerja? Di mana nilai pendidkan jika yang di zahir hanya menghamba semata? Di mana nilai pendidikan jika fungsi minda di helaian putih cuma? Mungkin itu definisi pendidikan untuk kita? atau mungkin hanya pendidikan yang seperti ini yang layak untuk insan sperti kita? Pendidikan kerana harta bukan kerana nilai nya yang sebenar. Bijak betul kita ini. Jangan pendidikan itu cukup bila terima segulung ijazah sahaja.

Ini lah masalah kita. Silence and LISTEN. LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!

Salam, anda tahu yang terbaik untuk anda, tapi ada yang mahukannya dan ada yang tidak ambil peduli. Terpulang.

p/s Additional reading here. (similar blogpost)

Sedap quote ni,
Source http://msocsite.blogspot.com/2013/01/comfort-zone.html

Seventh Post: Dahulu Ini Sebuah Janji, Tapi Telah Dicapati.

Bismillah,


Kata mereka: "Nak buat proposal berbulan-bulan." -Ok sekarang dah berbulan-bulan dah rasanya (>3bulan).

Kata mereka: "Nak buat survey harga di universiti lain dahulu: -Ok, rasanya dah ada pihak yang provide maklumat tu.

" kolam renang larkin RM4.., klam renang seremban RM2.. Kolam Renang UIA Free; siap ada 2 kolam renang, satu untuk lelaki satu untuk perempuan.. Kolam renang UTM RM5, terpaksa ikut jadual pulak tu, and bukak lambat (pukul 9) =_="

          -petikan di facebook-

Kata mereka: "Beri kami masa" -Ok, nk berapa banyak lagi masa? Setahun, dua tahun?
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Ini bukan tentang isu kolam renang harga murah atau mahal. Ini tentang janji-janji yang ditaburkan. Ini tentang anda yang berjanji pada kami. Ini tentang perkara yang membuatkan kami undi anda kerana anda memberi kami harapan. 

Mungkin ini soal remeh dibandingkan denga isu politik nasional yang lebih hangat. Malah pasti ada pihak yang akan mengomel "Eleh, ini pun nak besarka, bukannya big problem pun. Dalam universiti je pun."

Ya betul, memang bukan isu besar, tapi besar atau tidak isu itu, tanggung jawab dan amanah yang dipikul sama besar sahaja dengan orang-orang yang terlibat dalam perkara yang lebih besar seperti isu poilitik nasional.

Mereka tidak salah sepenuhnya. Ada perkara yang mereka lakukan dengan baik dan tahniah untuk itu. Cuma, sedikit kelompongan seperti ini boleh menyebabkan pelbagai isu berbangkait, khusus insan-insan yang cuba menjatuhkan anda. Sebab, semasa awal kempen dulu, manifesto ini semua anda jadikan seolah-olah objektif perjuangan anda yang utama, namun setelah di pilih mejadi wakil kami berdasarkan manifesto itu, terus, sunyi sepi perlaksanaan manifesto. Mana turun harga kolam renang? Mana janji tandas bersih? Mana janji coach shuttle khas untuk wanita? Mana janji peningkatan perkhidmatan bas? Kalau bukan pada kertas flyers yang melambak bersepah di lantai usai pilihan raya yang akhirnya dikutip oleh makcik-makcik cleaner.

Salam, one who says, once didn't care, even until now.

Travelog 1: Backpacking in Sabah

Bismillah,

I'm not gonna write much in this post, all I'm giving is pictures and a lot of them.